Home. A Small Word That Sometimes Takes a Whole Journey.

It’s been three months since we moved to South Africa, and I now call this place home.

Home...
But what does that actually mean?

When Jeroen died, I didn’t just lose him, I lost the life I knew - our dreams and our future.
That’s what people refer to as secondary losses, a concept many don’t know until they’re right in the middle of it.

I completely lost my sense of home.
Home wasn’t the house I lived in, it was something I had to rediscover within myself.

For me, home stands for a sense of safety.
A place I can return to when everything around me feels like too much.
And when that place isn’t there - what do you do?

That’s not something a yoga class will fix.
It goes much deeper than that.

Real change begins within. And for me, that became a journey of discovery, one that unfolded slowly over the years.

Almost ten years later, that journey has taken me inward, and at the same time, across the world - to places I would never have chosen, but had to go to. Because it was there that I met myself. And my grief…

The things we most want to skip,
that’s exactly where we have to go through.

I would have given anything if someone back then could have told me
how to fix myself, how to create that sense of home, how to find calm and grounding again.
I would’ve paid a fortune. Just tell me what to do - and let’s fix what’s broken.

But let me tell you something: you are not broken.

I had to leave to rediscover what truly makes me come alive. And as beautiful as it is here in South Africa, behind the photos on social media lies a deeper truth: wherever you go, you take yourself with you.

You already know that, of course.
But here, I feel it - every single day.

And for me too, this continues to be a reminder to enjoy the journey, even when it’s hard. Because without joy, you don’t get far. And life’s too short to only tick off to-do lists.

Coming home to yourself is the greatest gift you can give yourself.

And that is the exact reason why I am hosting my 1:1 retreat, not as a quick fix but as a starting position to find that sense of home again. This week is the beginning of something new and something that’s already within you.

Read more about the Deep Dive Retreat here

With love from Cape Town